What’s The Most Difficult Thing You Have to Let Go of?

A story about redemption.

Tia Ella Gliata


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The past two years were all about redemption for me.

After having a pretty long religious journey in 2019, I wanted to take some time to take a hard look at myself and fix a few things I cannot fix thus far.

I have been able to transform some major things along the way:

  1. How to reflect my inner side on my outer self
  2. How to reshape where I want to go next
  3. How to be more chill on the way of getting there

It was not an easy journey, nor that I expected it would be. I’ve gotten a lot of help along the way and I also have to cut some people off for the sake of the transformation.

And yet, there’s one more question that’s taken me so long to answer:

What’s the most difficult thing I have to let go of?

My Big Shortcomings

It used to take me 8 years to realize that there was no good that could come from remembering each one of my big failures.

I used to have this note that I would always carry around with me that had a list of everything I could’ve done better at that I didn’t since I was three years old.

I used to beat myself up for it, for not getting it right, for quitting, and for not being more resilient enough to pursue it.

I used to blame my parents also for not forcing me to do so.

But after a good 8 years, I realized that there was nothing I could do about it.

Yes, I might accomplish much more if I have gotten to do all those things, but my life wasn’t so bad without them as well.

I’d say after 8 years, there was no regret.

My Recurring Failures

What has happened in the past two years was quite different. At least, I’ve chosen to look at it from a different angle.

I have been able to let go of my 8 years of shortcomings because I felt like I’ve reached the end of that journey for those shortcomings and the end story wasn’t bad, so what the hell if I…



Tia Ella Gliata

Pouring my heart out. Writing as self-therapy. Healthy lifestyle, exploring, & building a community I’ll devote my life to. Cheerio!