What’s The Most Difficult Thing You Have to Let Go of?

A story about redemption.

Tia Ella Gliata

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The past two years were all about redemption for me.

After having a pretty long religious journey in 2019, I wanted to take some time to take a hard look at myself and fix a few things I cannot fix thus far.

I have been able to transform some major things along the way:

  1. How to reflect my inner side on my outer self
  2. How to reshape where I want to go next
  3. How to be more chill on the way of getting there

It was not an easy journey, nor that I expected it would be. I’ve gotten a lot of help along the way and I also have to cut some people off for the sake of the transformation.

And yet, there’s one more question that’s taken me so long to answer:

What’s the most difficult thing I have to let go of?

My Big Shortcomings

It used to take me 8 years to realize that there was no good that could come from remembering each one of my big failures.

I used to have this note that I would always carry around with me that had a list of everything I could’ve done better at that I didn’t since I was three years old.

I used to beat myself up for it, for not getting it right, for quitting, and for not being more resilient enough to pursue it.

I used to blame my parents also for not forcing me to do so.

But after a good 8 years, I realized that there was nothing I could do about it.

Yes, I might accomplish much more if I have gotten to do all those things, but my life wasn’t so bad without them as well.

I’d say after 8 years, there was no regret.

My Recurring Failures

What has happened in the past two years was quite different. At least, I’ve chosen to look at it from a different angle.

I have been able to let go of my 8 years of shortcomings because I felt like I’ve reached the end of that journey for those shortcomings and the end story wasn’t bad, so what the hell if I…

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Tia Ella Gliata

Pouring my heart out. Writing as self-therapy. Healthy lifestyle, exploring, & building a community I’ll devote my life to. Cheerio!