It’s been four years since I graduated college. Not much that I can still remember from those glorious three years of my life.
I was happy. Motivated. I wasn’t exactly feeling like I was on top of the world or if I walked above water, but I felt ‘achieved’ like I have accomplished everything I set myself up for in three years.
Not even three months after my college life was completed, the first worst moment of my life began.
Everything fell apart and I can barely still holding on to anything.
I remember feeling not hopeless but just would…
The last few days weren’t exactly my brightest moments.
I haven’t written in a while because I kind of want to change the whole tone of my writing, but this one is an exception.
This will just be a sad, sad diary to reflect how exactly I’m feeling at the moment cause it’s all I can think about in the last few days.
I feel exactly the same way as when I was 13.
I have always known that I love traveling. …
When everything is shit, all you gotta do is let yourself go.
I’ve been in a really bad mood lately. No surprise there, to be honest.
I knew this would happen six months ago. Yet, there’s nothing in my power to stop it.
The context of ‘why’ in this matter is irrelevant. It’s just one of those times that everyone experiences no matter where they are in their lives when nothing goes perfectly or even remotely perfect as planned.
This is the time when I don’t want to have my shit together.
I want to spend some money unnecessarily, make…
To my loveliest, Adam Nilsson. This is for you.
Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved,
now and then joyfully,
I can live only wholly with you or not at all
Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you
until I can fly to your arms
and say that I am really at home with you
and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits
No one else can ever possess my heart
Never never oh God
Why must one be parted from one whom one so…
Life is unfair in the most fair way possible.
I have no idea how often I’ve said that.
Not that I’m such a genius in life as I still find myself needing to get my shit together from time to time, but failure has been a big part of my life at this point and it definitely has shaped my view towards it.
I used to give up so easily whenever I failed at something, which made it hard for me to stick long enough to fall in love with it.
But there were moments where even if I’ve failed…
You know that scene in Glee season 4 when Santana left Brittany because their long-term relationship didn’t work and Brittany quickly fell off and lost herself?
Needless to say, I couldn’t think of a better example.
In a lot of drama-romance movies/tv shows, there are often scenes where a couple breaks up and for one person it looks like the end of the world.
No offense to the lovely drama plots, but 9.9 out of 10, it probably isn’t.
It might feel like it in the first 3–10 days and it is okay to mourn the relationship for a while.
I went to a hospital the other day to take a SWAB test as a lot of people did.
As I was waiting for my turn, I saw a lot of doctors and nurses passing by and I started to wonder, “What does it feel like to wake up knowing that you’re gonna help a lot of people today?” Cause I don’t think I’d know the answer.
I let the thought passed by and continued taking the test.
I grew up loving doing entrepreneurship stuff. I have a business major and I work in the advertising and sales industry. …
“Keep doing what you do, Mike.” — Mithell Garabedian, Spotlight
Spotlight is a 2015 drama/history movie that earned itself the most prestigious awards at the Oscar 2016, Best Picture and Best Original Screenplay. It captured an actual event about a team of investigative journalists who worked for The Boston Globe that was covering a story about child-abuse cases by priests in Boston. The story managed to uncover hundreds of more victim stories who reached out after the story was published.
I couldn’t help but think after watching the movie,
Is that what we’re supposed to do with our lives? Doing…
There was a time where I stayed at my friend’s apartment for six months because it was very close to my office. Most of the time, I went straight to work, but it was a rainy day one morning. So, I decided to have a little breakfast first at a cheap minimarket nearby.
As I took the indoor seating, I noticed seven kids around the age of eight or nine sitting at a table outside. They were eating noodles, smoking cigarettes, and casually chatting with one another.
At that moment I wondered, what kind of life that they had at…
To my loveliest, Adam Nilsson. This is for you.
Lyn is not particularly fond of the outside world, but there are some things she does miss about it, still.
Like watching little kids play in the park, while not time, weather, their parents, nor even the sun could tell them when to go home. Only when one of them cried, that it was the right sign for them to leave the scene.
It’s been five years since the last time she saw such an event. She has kept herself busy with her daily routine and housework. Although sundown is usually…