4th Depression

I can’t believe I’m back here again.

At the time when I thought I would be happier than ever, at least happier than the rest of the year, I’m back in a depressed state again.

I recognize it so easily.

I’ve been in this position 3 times before and this one is very familiar to my very first depression in 2017.

I know what I want. I know what to do. Nothing just seems to happen according to plan and it fucking sucks.